Sunday, June 16, 2013

Father





This Fathers Day I've taken a lot of time to reflect on the role that my father has played in my life.  A daddy's girl at heart, it took a little longer than most for me to realize that I didn't get to marry my Dad in a castle when I grew up.  He was my Prince Charming and I wanted to marry a man that had every characteristic that he did.  

When he was diagnosed with stage 4 prostate cancer it was like a stab to the heart.  I was just getting ready to finish up college and well on my way to marrying my high school sweet heart.  At only 20, I was faced with the awful reality that he might not be around long enough to attend my college graduation or dance with at my wedding.  In the final precious year of his life, I did all I could to preserve every moment I was with him.  I just wanted to be in his presence as long as possible.  When things looked like they weren't getting better, and starting to go down-hill fast, my dad and I recorded a song together that I have treasured.  The words in the song perfectly capture my love for him more eloquently than I ever could.  This song was played at his funeral, one year after his diagnosis.

Today at church my mom taught a lesson on the importance of fathers to some of the teenage girls.  As church was just about to end, I was walking down the hall, and stopped dead in my tracks when I heard the familiar voice of my Dad.  I snuck into the room next to my mom's class, and listened as she played our duet to the girls.  I sat down in that dark room and let my dads beautiful voice consume me.  I buried my face in my hands, and had myself a real good ugly cry.  I needed to hear his voice today and I will be forever grateful that we recorded this song together.  I thought I would share it on such a fitting day.  The song is called My Father, My Daughter, and you can listen to it here.

Here's to every little girls first Prince Charming.

16 comments:

  1. What an incredibly special tribute. I just cried ugly tears for you listening to that beautiful song. We can always look over photos of loved ones who have passed, but to hear his voice must be so comforting and heartbreaking at the same time. May your three princes all fill his big shoes and your bigger heart xx

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  2. Beautiful post Leanne. I loved every minute of that song, and also had an ugly cry too. You have a beautiful heart and voice! Thanks for sharing this little piece, it was just what I needed to hear this day.

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  3. beautiful leanne! how fitting that your voice sounds as flawless as a disney princess!

    he must be so proud of the woman and mother you are!!!!!!!!!

    xo
    Kailee

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  4. I'm so sorry about your Dad. That must be so hard. YOur post totally made me cry. The song is beautiful. SOmetimes you need the ugly and good cry.

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  5. Count me as another who cried at your post... such a lovely tribute!

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  6. Beautiful post. I loved listening to that song. Thanks for sharing.

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  7. Leanne, you have the voice of an angel! Thanks for sharing that special song with us -- love you!!

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  8. What a beautiful song! Your voice is just beautiful! My father just recently passed away from cancer. Yesterday was a tough day for sure, as it was the first one without him. I know it'll get easier as time goes though. I'm so glad you have such a beautiful song to go back and listen to!

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  9. Thanks for sharing your story and your beautiful song.

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  10. Your dad was so incredible. I miss him. He just made everyone so happy. Thanks for sharing and much love to you and your family, especially your mom.

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  11. Oh Leanne, I am so sorry for you loss. But as has been said, what a wonderful gift this recording is!

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  12. That song! His voice. Your voice. Oh my, I have goosebumps. What a gift you have!

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  13. I am sooo happy you shared this! I knew you recorded it but never got to hear it. I miss getting to hear your voice, and I especially miss getting to be around your dad. He was one of the coolest dads I've ever known. Sure love you and your family, xoxo

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